YEARRRRG i am sooo hungry
well usually i am a very happy person, you can ask anyone... only it doesnt seem like that. today i was looking at all my deviations and reading my journal entries when i realized that the only time i ever submit, is when i am a) sad, depressed and Emo feeling, or b) procrastinating with hw. well that makes me seem like a very sad person, even though i am not. it doesnt take much to make me happy. actually it is ridiculously easy to make me happy.

well i was talking to my friend rose the other day when i had this wierd realization. i am actually a really emotional person. i know that sounds stupid, but listen. i will cry if someone kills an ant. i am happy when my frind beats me at a contest. my moods go to extremes. no i am not bi polar. my aunt says that i am "Very in touch with {my} body" the thing is, i let out my emotions very expresively, as in, i dance when i am mad, and sing wehn i am happy, and i stop talking when i am sad

another wierd thing is that when i have memories or flashbacks, i not only remember, but i feel. for example when i go on this certain hill on my bike, i remember the first time i went down that hill. the thing is, i had a competely different perspective of that hill the first time i went down that hill than i have now. so when i go donwn that hill, i feel two things at the same time, my perspective from the first time and the one from now. it is wierd and hard to explain.

while i am on this tangent of things that are wierd about me, i may as well say this.
we have a history in my family for being psychic. very cheesy, i know, but it is true.
befor people in my family died, i had dreams that they did. i have wierd connections with people like i say things at the same time as them, or right before/after, or i know when they are introuble or coming closer. people have this a lot, but i have it all the time. a few weeks ago i went through this phase where, at normal times in the day and veryfrequentlyi would have thes short flashes of things that could happen next. for exapmle: i was walking down the street and i had two "visions" one that i would fall into the street and get hit by a truck and the other where i would keep wallking. of course i kept walking, but it was exactly the way i imagined it. and when i told my friend i said ".. and the other one was that i would be hit by the re truck that is coming" and she said "what truck?" and i said "that one" just as a red truck passed by. the thing was, it came from behind. see? wierd huh?

well anyways, weather i am psychic or psycho, i will never know
jusst felt like telling you